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Saturday, July 21, 2007

ah ha... yoz yoz... i am back... after so long... phew... soo tired...

busy with work, and stuff... went in to malaysia few weeks ago... wa ha... so fun...

hee.... slighty dunno wat to said....

hmm... tok abt things happen few weeks ago ba... well well... last last sunday... wen wen, zi zi and kai ann come house and bake cake.... lol.... so fun... welll first time fail then secxond time only slighty pass but the cream is pass.... yeah.... then i think something not right that's y fail so i went and ask aunty and yes... i really forget things... so hehe... i buy le go home bake again... and well... its sucess.... lol... so happy but its seems like i put too much sugar... the cake is sweet and also the cream its sweet too... but over all its pass... oh ya... its blackforest cake but... sorry i lazy to buy cocoa powder so my cake is not chocolate colour de... haha... oh ya... forget to said... before bake cake i bake biscuits and also cookies... also got make baked rice....

hmm... then thursday, i went back to class le... after 1 yr... i went back... lol.... all i dunno de.... so shock sia.... i was like... huh??? where the hell is everybody and then some more nv saw ding yu ge only saw jun bu jie(his wife) lucky she look after me if nt i pengz sia... after class then ding yu ge come.. lol... tok to him a lot and hehe... kana scold le.... 1 yr nv go back class... hahahah... but nvm la... now go back le... some more also know new frend....

Yeah... clarie.... so fun toking with her....gosh... we wan be huang jing ta dang.... lol... she faster la... now already 12% i gonna caught up... next yr company zhao dai go japan, so think could have the chance to go.... hehe... jia you ba.,..

hmm.... then today... nth much ba... jus memorise flow back.... during morning when i jus open shop no customer will be in the shop so i went to friendster... will just check check... then happen to post a bulleting post by "her" and usually i dun read bulleting but saw the topic n its seems great so i went in see lor...

welll read half way there's a words ask... "Are you thinking about someone?"

at this moment ha... silly me.... suddenly think of "him"... at this point of time lucky shop no ppl... good for me to vent my anger out.... after so long... tot i can dun ji hen any ppl wan.... who knows i still ji hen.... surprise sia.... even when winnie my 12 yrs frend back stab me and i didnt even ji hen now still very good with her... this the first time i ji hen things until now sia... waha....

but will... 1 drops of tears is still waste away.... and i was like... wa lao.... y drop tears when think of him... maybe its still hurts ba... no matter wat 'he" is still the person i like when he SAID that i trying to break him up with her ba.... its was like thankfully for starting qian hui they all cant understand my feelings until one day hui almost met same things but not worst then mine... jus that cos her to break off nia... that's the time she told me i finally understand how u feel....

at the moment i really almost break down again.... cos finally someone understanding my feelings... nt ppl that who mouth saying i know how u feel i dun wish u get hurt or wateve but who knows whether they can really understand ma....

i was like lucky i nv vent any much anger i jus shout ahhhhhh..... wat the fuck u thinking and doing sia.... carol koh, u gt teuk le already ok.... dun greedy...

its was like... my mind was like... fuck... blank for 3 secs... then back... since the day i met teuk i nv think of any other le.... even "him" i also almost wan forget le... then today flow backs.... guo ran as ppl said.... sad memorise is hard to get off from life... but....my mind now was like telling me...

dun think dun think dun think dun think too much... and i was like.... repeating park jung su park jung su park jung su in my mind so jus to remind myself there's still teuk there...

ziii.... sorry la... its nt i everyday wan teukki teukki at there call... its natural la.... my mind only gt teuk now la... then u said i throw away changmi... ya la... i agree la... i abit dunno throw him where le cos now mind only gt teuk ma... when the day i met him.... oh my... wahahaha....

zi... u see... i over despo le la... haha.... his moans.... wahahaha.... reminds me of that really wan laugh like pangz.... paiseh ah.... let u hear something *vomit* de... haha .... ok la... i offline le... go orh orh... n go see can met my teuk in dreamland ma.... haha... since cannot see him in real person at the moment now... nite nite... oh ya... can go to photo to see the cake and cookies i bake under cooking/ baking folder....

teukkie teukkie....

angelized @ 10:22 AM

0 comments Saturday, June 09, 2007

ah ha.... saturday... another weekend... enjoying day...

today work until 3 pm... hehe... skip "ban" went hougang de AZ to pass le ting DBSK autograph poster... then pass abck some comic to vivian.... stay there awhile before went to Plaza singapura meet Joe....

after met joe we went shop around and joke.... then we go DASIO... lol... inside a lot things sia... then me and joe at there joke joke look look around... we then went to TAKASHIMAYA there is MOS burger... wa.... so fulll....

after food we intend to go far east de then on the way we saw out wistma there gt a tattro telling(isit spell like that??) actually i intend to go ask la... end up me and joe went to kinokuniya and look at some tattro cards... wa... he also like that leh... same same... i gt small intrested in it only.... then in kino i buy a instant korean guide book.... Thanks joe for helping me choose that... its useful...

then we went off to Cine... actually wan go home de but i wan buy famous amos... hehe... greedy neh... then he accompany me go lor... when we walk pass the one i remember shiyun inside with weihao then i called wei hao as yun nv pick her phone... i called them out to pass yun something... after that me n joe went buy famous amos... then we went to more than words... i bought a rings that look special... i love it man...

after that is already 11 plus we both went home lor.... yeah... so tired... but its been a long time i last went out n talk while shoping with frends... its fun... thanks joe... enjoy sia...

wah, u dun forget that we haven watch shreak III hor... must go watch n also must make appoinment for the tattro telling ok.... when free then sms me lor... hehe...

k la.. stop here i so tired.... nite blog... nite everyone... oh ya... frend i recover from the pain, hurt and sadness le.... dun worried for me... jus that dun wish to think of the words he said to me... cos its too much n hurts when a person u like hint said u are a third party and tell u dun break him n the gf up as he loves her.... oh... ya.. right... nt HINT... its directly said u trying break them up... how can i use hint to cover up for him... stupid me... cover for him n keep telling myself that he doesnt mean it... oh ya... doesnt mean it... like real... after a msg then send another said sorry i know i am hrush watever... quarrel with frends and said sorry is ok... hurt a person that still like u n said sorry after hurting u think can be solve so easy.... so sorry i am a gal not boy nt guy... i dun have LJ... nt u wan hurt then hurt then said sorry can le... F... u being hurt by gals before n u hurt me... i dun cruse u i dun wan said anything i dun wan bother abt anything... since u hurt me this way n i dunno whether isit jus becos u been hurt before but i believe that u hurt me this way one day u will get the same things back... of cos nt like wat u are thrid party or wat... u will get another way i believe...

ah ha... dun said so much.... once think of it the anger is back... nt becos of lex, agnes, jieyu, zizi they all de hua i think i already in mental hospital or maybe i wun be live in this world... of cos i am nt so stupid cos i still gt my family ma... but think of it really if nt becos of u all i already in mental hospital le... in there for depression...

hao la... form jus now said wan stop until nw still buay stop... dunno i siao liao isit.... haha... ok... nite nite

angelized @ 11:11 PM

0 comments Monday, June 04, 2007

YO, blog... i am back... hmm... how long i ahve been not updating le ar??? hmmm half years?? yesh more then half a year...

haha... paiseh hor... forget abt u le...

lots of things happen... Life went up and down.... dunno wat to said... cos its so hurts to think abt it... tot i let it go but when i think it back still hurts... cos the words is too much.... i always tell ppl when frends do wrong things said a sorry will be fine.... BUT being hint said u are a third party by the person u like is nt a sorry can be solve, can be heal... cos its too much...

i throw myself into a dark crazy world for sometimes and recover asap as i can... now being heal back to the normal self but cant think abt wat i receive from 'him'

dun mention abt this le... tok abt other things...

saturday went to scape DJ party to see wawa their compettition... surprise that to see a new vocalist up there... but he is handsome n blur cute... haha... blur blur de... but his voice is not bad... seeing wawa being fine feel so happy...

sunday went to DJ party again to see their performance again... great job they sing number of songs and i like one of the song but i dunno the name... hee... paiseh... after finish i was slacking around there until agnes sms me and i called her bring baby here... hehe...

birng baby go disturb ppl... haha... then while i waiting, nu er came towards me said... mummy, jon is here... at the moment when i heard his name, my heart skip.... ohhhhhhhhh noooooooooo.... y did it skip... u stupid rubbish heart... ahhhhhhhh.... nvm... so at first i tot joel, eddied eng, xin hui and xinxin was there then i walk towards there n jon is there i nv bother la... then i cant find them n walk back...

That vannise people hit drums she hit me... wa lao... win le lor... but cute lor.... then after bring baby see wawa i went off with agnes, wen wen and hisn ning to cine buy bag and eat... then walk pass jon... i told myself if u dun tok to him now u have no chance to tok to him again... so when i saw him seems like look at my directions, i wave to him and he wave back and said hello...

I bring vannise there and sad... called uncle faster, faster called uncle... then he said... kor kor la uncle... haha... so funny... then he ask... isit it... then stop think he wan us isit urs... haha... dunno la... then he change said who baby its belongs too... i ka jiao ka jiao said mine then he laugh said really ma... haha... then i laugh said my frend de la... then he keep play with the baby... then ka jiao until said called ah bei... hahaha.... so funny eh... then after awhile went off le...

At long jhon there met him again... then i said vannise... ah pei come le ah pei come le... then he come in he called vannise "baobei~" *vomit* wa lao... rou ma lor... some more to a baby... kao... i almost faint... haha... then i said wa lao ppl mother's here u nv ask permission then play liao then he and agnes said huh play?? haha... then he look at agnes and said hello aunty... wa lao... i said him kao... ppl same age as me u call ppl aunty... then he said usually we "chen hu" a person with baby aunty ma... then agnes said then ppl other then me called uncle le lor... then he said... called ah bei also can...

wa lao... super duper funny... then chat chat awhile i called vannise said y jus now ppl hit drums u hit me u dun hit him?? hit him ma he's a guitarist leh... y u dun hit him... then that agnes said... cos ur breast big ma... wa lao... win le lor... then jon start his kpo again... wat wat?? then i reply him... no la i said why baby dun hit u hit me then she said cos i breast big... then i said see she so zi... i ahven finish the words then he said... true ma ur breat is big... wa lao... wei u tai zi le ba...

first time tok to him so much tok until so zi... win le lor... but i also a bit zi la... haha....

aiya seems like type a lot le... tired le... go koonz le... nite

angelized @ 11:07 AM

0 comments Saturday, October 14, 2006

hey yo.... so long bo update... seems like all of you going to killed me.... hee.... espically ROX and SUYU... both of u will ask nehx... lol...

ok la... for the past de i dun really feel like saying... hmm... on 24/09/2006 is my 18th birthday... well, on 23rd i open a birthday celebration at downtown east chalet.... gt invite jon end up he didnt appear... nvm... at least he sms me when i cut my cake... lol... jus in time... so touch... i can fly nehx... happy happy... float here and there than jie jie also laugh at my sillyness...

hmmm... after tat chalet thingy seems like a lot things happen to me... at one go... friendship, family, RELATIONSHIP (huh... surprise ba... me tis ppl will have problems with relationship), work... all one go come towards me... i dunno wat to do... almost break down.... almost wan to lock myself up in the room... reject food, reject seeing ppl reject working... tis is all wat i wan at first... but there's things push me to face the truth, face the fate, face the real and face everything up.... n i jus put up a strong side of myself n smile.... who knows i actually did almost break down when i am bathing.... cos that's the only place mum wun saw i am crying, tat's the only place no one can see i am crying...

i am tired... can i rest??? can't u all let me rest in peace?? i am sick of it i am tired....

take example out of wat i am tired... first wawa gt alot things happen... ppl who read her blog should know wat happen... tot its not all... than family... ma has been nagging at me about "him"... wat the heck u wan when i am already said i am nt with him N I WILL NT BE WITH him... happy?? nt happy still nag until jie nag u...

than point come... RELATION... i hate this... its always hurts me a lot.... until i dun wan to face any of it le... i still in love with jon ya true... but at the same time i fall for another person... fall for his caring... STUPIUD... BAKA.... how idiot n stupid i can be to fall for ppls caring... y am i always falling in love to ppl who cares?? tis is so BAKA... the main point my good frend also fall for him... well but end up my good frend is happily with another guy... glad for her....

as for me... happily sweet moment 2 weeks... n i start feeling tat its so horrible tat i am nt ur gf but in ppl eyes our action is saying tat i am urs... sorry i am not... i am free tat time... n mum has been dunno nag like wat until i really headache... than i start to think tat i wan keep a distance with him... at the same time is a test for him... i pushing him away to another ppl, pushing him away from me... well, the next day he need to go oversea... tat's great... no need see him for 3 days... i can really rest down and think...

but who knows i am so bad luck... tat day he went off wawa is in a nt very good condition... lyn working i also need but end up i take leave have a small urgure with the head... than bring wawa to SOS n see her like tat i really dunno wat to do??? when i was at SOS centre wawa is inside the room toking i seatting outside waiting... at tat point of time i suddenly tot of he said before... even tot we are not together i will still be at ur side when u need me... so wat i get when i am in a very mess world n i need someones help?? his at oversea... i keep thinking wat if u are here i will be more relax more cool down more stable...

first day past... the seconday, she gt problems again... lyn have no choice but to take leave and go with her... end up send her to IMH... n i has been worried for the whole day... until i gt news tat she's still alright.... at nite i was thinking tml u will be back will u message me?? tat point of time i think a lot... although i wan be with a person tat age is elder than me nt my age, n i was still think i am working the thinking sure will be different... lots lots things came up to my mind... mum's reject n watever... end up i make a choice of if he message me i will just continue wat we are n put my heart down to like him but of cos jon is still inside my stupid heart its the matter he can push him out of my heart ma...

ok... last day, friday... whole day i has been working... i believe tat he sure think i forget wat time he is coming back... but sorry i still remember i know he will be in spore by 8 wat my info from xiaowei is 8.01 he message her... great... he rather find another gal.... wat to do??? i have no choice... but to let it go... cos i hate the feelings of being tie by a guy... the next day noon mama happily tell me she wan cut i smile smile act happily said i wan too n she bring me down to cut... well my hair stylist happily cut my hair she loves to cut my hair.... n she cut my upper layer hair until very short n lower layer leave long... i like the hairstyle alot...

well... on sun i wan go buy my office clothes cos i start working at new place le... change new job, its work under DBS... than go find xiaowei accompany me... when cine find her n saw them... didn't tok to him he also look stunned with my new hairstyle.... great... tat's the best... than after tat me n xiaowei went to plaza singapura there de THIS FASHION to get my office wear.... hee... than after tat we went long john eat, junwei n him come join us... ok... maintian quite... than after tat we take bus home... on bus i seat down than he seat at another junwei also....

hmmm... at first abit stunned but than jus keep think of other things... when reach my house there usually he will send me home end up no... i expected... *deep breathe* nah... anyway jus back to my normal self... go home alone everytime after going out with frends... so i am use to it... but i abit hate myself... everything relay on him... i DUN WAN... I HATE IT... well... on the way home there's tis bangala follow me when i was on the way back home... dun dare to go up... so give jun wei n him a call see they can help ma end up non of them pick the call...

i went to coffee to drink a cane of drink n wait than saw a uncle is my neighbour i called him send me back together than he n me fake fake at there tok than after tat when the bangala go back le than i go up...

nah.. a lot things happen i dun have the mood to type out... i am very tired... my headache is back again... sometimes i pain badly until i can cried... there's one time i pain until i bang the wall n than go sleep... lucky nth happen to me...

things related to human like relation or frendship, there's nth i will said hard for me... frend i can settle easily... relation i only has a few ways... one way, like tat person but nv tell him, second way tell u straight than see how things go... last way, when u really makes me think i should give up on u.... than i will do it n let u know...

when i am in love with u i can be very nice to u... of cos u will only feel i treat u like how i treat my frend but when u make me gives up on u than u will know how heartless i can be to let u go n jus treat u as super duper normal frend... when i gives up on a person its very hard for me to turn my head n fall for him again... cos my heart dun allow me to fall for same person second time... at the moment now i think only gt 2 make me gives up le than fall for them again...

although i wan give up i need take times but i can give up day by day.... although its a bit hard for me... but sure can wan... now i concentrate on searching for BOYFRIEND tat elder than me by 6 yrs blow than 10 years... lol...

so got any good wan must intro me leh... ok la... my head reallys hurts me a lot... gonna go sleep n rest ar bo i sure pain until cried again... nite everybody...

angelized @ 11:56 PM

0 comments Thursday, August 31, 2006

wha... today get paid le... wahaha... but very fast no mney le... T.T...

give money 400 bucks... 300 for chalet 100 paid SCV... than 100 paid hp bill... waha... left 300 bucks nia... haha... than go buy clothes top up bus fare n tis n tat... left 150 buck... haha...

must tahan until 5 of sep nehx... haha...

well... i gt myself some clothes n a skirt... total wearing look like cosplayer... keke... tat's wat i wan... haha...

well... after buying yan jiemin n me went home...

me n yan reach bedok mrt station n we actually wan go withdraw money... n well... when we both walk towards the atm machine we walk pass the toilet... n there's a guy infornt of me and i feel he look familiar...

than me n yan was still toking abt tat he look like kuek... but i was like hmm.. dun think so... cos he stay yishun ma... but... wahaha... who kno9ws when he came out of toilet we was queing for the atm he walk down the escalator n than i believe its kuek...

tat yan... look so happy... wahhaha.... ok la... i damn tired tml gt work... go koonz first...

angelized @ 11:56 PM

0 comments Thursday, August 24, 2006

seatting infont of the computer, typing tis entries memorise flow back into my mind...

jus finish video conference with da jie... looking at the screen see her over there yet cannot reach her... when she mention tat she miss me n er jie she miss when the 3 of us have to squeez on the bed to sleep... tears droping down my cheeks... i miss her too...

tok abt she wish tat she can have a baby soon like when mummy first time hand me to her small small de... hw she wish i am tat small now... but so bad i am 18... looking at me grow making her feel funny... from baby until now... she's the one who care a lot for me... no matter wat she give me the best things...

grow until so old i am reng xin jus becos jiejie mama teng me... jus becos of their over teng i become reng xin... heee... paiseh... haha....

when i cry she started crying too... i miss the hug we used to have... when young i cant sleep without jie... she midnight sleep i also midnight sleep... she's jus like a teddy bear to me, slowly i can sleep without her... when i grow elder each day we dun hug each other le... but now i miss the hug we used to have...

time past so fast... from the day she flew to arizona until now already almost half yr gone.... time past... suddenly miss her... hw i wish tat tml is the day she come back but no... we still have 1 and a half yr to go...

after toking to her she went koonz... its morning 8.01 there when here is 11 plus... gosh... i also need koonz le... tml gt work nehx... haiz... dun wan think much... tml eyes sure like goldfish de... hope wun as tears keep flowing down like a tap didn't turn tight...

ok la... stop here...

angelized @ 12:22 AM

0 comments Wednesday, August 23, 2006

wahaha... a lot ppl said i long long nv update le... where gt nv... gt la... jus tat lazy la... some more work tired leh... ok la... nw at work nth to do so update lor...

well... last week super duper moody n also bua song of the rumours things... but than after 2 days i was like... aiya... heck la... i fuck care the person but jus dun let me found her la...

well.. update on 20/8 de... since tat day more things to said... well... tat day is kuek birthday celebration... was at pasir ris chalet... well it was a bit sian also a bit fun... as they all ans the question tat fans ask... wahaha... damn funny... yan suay suay kana pick... wahahaha....

well... after the Q & A section they all again sign sign, take pic take pic... wahahaha.... than me n yan go take things eat... hungry.... wa... the dunno is sotong ball or fish ball la... betweent still gt cheese de... damn nice leh... gosh... feel like having it again... hahaha... than heard tat is brought by shinya.... haha... me n yan still wan to go ask shinya said ehhh... where u buy de ar... LOLX...

well... than someone as usualy busy like hell... is still bua song abt he nv reply my msg abt the firework thingy... hump... nv reply me... damn idiot lor... than i stare at him awhile... n turn off tokt o other... than walk to the back there with yan we both kuku la... back there gt vending machine can buy drink we go one round buy... wahahaha.... than after tat we stand there n tok lor... since there gt aircon... hehe... than shinya was there... than he said... can see tat u are waiting for kelvin... -_-"... i gt wait for kel mah??? ok la... abit true i wiating for him to come since so long nv see his rubbish partten... hahaha....

than after tat kelvin come le... woo... he so busy kana stuck tat ppl wan his quotagraph than take pic he was stuck at the bed there... lol... than we went outside n seat n tok...

than me n yan was at the slope there standing n tok when i saw jon standding there kana bao wei by fans... haha... well... somebody make him bua song if i nt wrong... cos his face a bit black black lor... but he still smile to fans... well... when i stare at him he busy so i turn my head away than when i turn back he head up n saw me... he didnt smile but his face look very black... than when ppl call him he smile again... well... heck care him... than he suddenly run off to the back door there n went behide... dunno him la...

so becos its too hot me n yan went in too... i went to the bed there n jus right seat right below the aircon... soo good... than shuting also behide me said very song hor here... so shu fu... ya lor... super good sia... gt aircon... than we tok n have some aircon.... hahaha.... after awhile tat mr come back le... n he jus walk in n i ahppen to be there n we was actually at him so when i see him i laugh more... wa liao.... than he saw me he first words was :" oi, massage... help me massage, come... massage... " n i was still laughing at the joke so i said... come la... u lay down la... than i massage lor... u dare come la... than he suddenly tone down n laugh n said.... no la... so amny ppl paiseh later la later... wahahaha.... *bleah* u dun dare... wahaha.... dun care him tahn i continue the joke with shuting they all...

after tat i went outside, kel also at outside n seat at some place n eat... i cant see him as he is block by ppl... so i ask wei fang where's kel than she said there so i went over n see n he saw me n wave n i also wave... haha... he so cute lor... than i go said hey, lyn back from japan le leh... tahn he ask... where she?? than i said she nt here today la, than he stom his feet on teh ground lor... so cute...hahaha,,, than we kajiao her.. i called lyn but she nv pick her phone so i acll here sis hp n said call her pick up... than i pass to kel than kel ask... "WHERE'S MY STONE"... hahaha... lyn like nv heard than he shout again " U STILL SLEEP AR... DUN SLEEP LE... WAKE UP" wa liao... damn funny lor... i was there laugh until pengz lor.... than he said... where's my stone i even sand also wan... wa liao... duper cute lor him.... wa liao...

than after him i take the phone to vics tahn after vics to jon... than lyn dunno who is him... than jon said u wait than he shout she also dunno who am i... than return me the phone... lolx.... damn funny... so iw as like running NAFA station taking the phone here n there let them tok... lolx... hahah...

well... the ending packing is done by shinya... xinku ta le... thanks for packing up the rubbish for us...

ok... i think i type duper long liao... so no complain of i am nt updating.... well... arbo, ling will complain said i type too long... lolx...

angelized @ 11:21 AM

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